Wednesday, October 27, 2010

These are a few of my favorite things ( no brown paper mittens)

So just of late I have found so much laughter happening in our home... Why?
I don't rightly know sir, but I do know it has made such a difference in my daily walk...

These are a few of my favorite things ( not necessarily in the order of most to least just likes):

1. Twitter - I love getting little tiny 140 characters or less updates from people all over the world. Because quite frankly you hear the most random things happening like someones child just told an old man he looks like emperor Palpatine from Star Wars... Or you can even here praise reports and  prayer requests...

2. My bible - actually reading the word of God everyday is AMAZING!!! To think that God is talking directly to me brings me joy! and then there are those times when it brings me a little pain because its cutting through my flesh... and lets face it our flesh doesn't like being cut!

3. My friends - I mean I have been blessed with friends around me that love me for who I am.  They even come over when I play games on my phone, and they stay! They come over on days when I'm not feeling well, they encourage me, make me tea and bring the occasional REDBULL!
which leads me to favorite thing number four...

4. REDBULL - It really does give you wings... I for some reason love redbull, I love the taste of it honestly... I love its name because sometimes after drinking one I actually feel as if I have been running with the bulls while wearing red! Which then makes you feel like your in Spain so after you crash from the sugar high you have a reason for a siesta!

5. Having Boys - Having boys somedays is so very tiring but I tell you this there is never a dull moment! There is always someone climbing on something, hulk smashing things or squeaking on you... In the Kelly household squeak = fart ( my appologies to both nanny & nonnie for the use of that word)
When Pierce was born someone bought me a plaque that said " A mother of boys work is from son up to son down" Yes, yes this is so absolutely true... There is also the other boy in our house my sweet husband. and by sweet I mean SAHWEET!!! We have always laughed at each other, with each other and at others! Oh how I love him.

6. TV - yes I am a TV head through and through... There is just something about it that sucks me right in... So of course since the great Kelly turn the TV off I have been itching and twitching but I will survive unless Survivor is on! Just kidding I don't really watch that. So I have been weaning myself with watching the radio TV stations... so there is still movement on the screen and noise coming out of it... This is a gradual step for all of us!

7. Autism - Of course there are some days this is not my favorite thing... Yet for the most part there are things about it I just love like the fact Pierce really can't tell a lie, he just doesn't know how to. The way he sees life its all so very detailed and he picks out the things I think we don't because we over complicate everything.
I love and hate the way when he has his mind set on something he will NOT and I mean will NOT stop until he has said thing in his hand... I recently was frustrated with this but also thought this was a good trait so I prayed and asked God to show me how to refine this skill he had given Pierce... And to give me the patience to deal with the not so good side of this like when he has his mind set on a Ben 10 toy and every 5 mins he is asking when can we go to Target and get Wrath? or " Okay Mummy I got my shoes on and I cleaned my room now lets go get Wrath!" Its like after everything he does he has to add in " okay lets go get Wrath!"
This is where I lose my patience and say some crazy thing like " If you mention Ben 10 toys one more time I will blow up the Ban Dai factory!" Which Pierce of course knows they are the makers of Ben 10, naturally.
8. My life - Maybe my life is not what I thought it would be when I was 15 and I though for sure I would be either a lawyer defending the weak or a doctor who has figured out a cure for the uncurable...
But my life is so much more than that... I protect the weak like when Pierce is going to hulk smash Phin for touching his toys... I am trying to find something to recover Pierce from some of the symptoms of his autism...
So I suppose I am doing some of what my 10 year plan was when I was 15 it just took me 20 years to do it...
One of my favorite sayings is - I was made to point them to Jesus, all of them CJ included. if that is all I ever accomplish in this life time I will hear well done! And that is all I ever need to accomplish.

Friday, October 22, 2010

Lessons on knitting from my Nan and God.

Ok so here is my second attempt at this blog thing...
So Psalm 139:13-14 says " For you formed my inward parts; you knitted me together in my mother's womb. I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are your works; my soul knows it very well"

Growing up with my Nan in me life she loved to knit and I can remember countless hours just sitting there watching her knit... She would pick out the wool, get it all ready, pick out the pattern, and then start knitting.
Nan would just sit there rocking or humming hymns or as we called it deedling but all along she had always a smile on her face.
Now the reason I think about this is I think of God doing the same thing as he formed each and every one of us in our mothers womb. He picked the DNA all the atoms and molecules that would make us up- the wool.  Then I can just picture God picking out the pattern the pattern for our lives. How every stitch He made would serve a purpose... Would we become cardigans to keep someone warm in the cold, or booties or a scarf... Whatever it is that God has set as a pattern for your life it has meaning.
My Nan knew when she started knitting what that lump of wool would be when it was finished... The Bible talks about Jesus being the author and the finisher... God knows He knew when He was forming you in your mothers womb this is so amazing to me... To think on this that God knows every detail of my life all my hurts, all my happiness and joys everything... AMAZING GOD!
verse 14 says ' I praise you!' Lord I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made!
Now I think back to when my Nan would be knitting and singing... God did this when He formed you He smiled He loves you he knew He would send His son to die for you so you could one day be with Him.

I have held to this Psalm so tightly at times when I was trying to figure out how or why Pierce was born with his cleft lip/palate and then Phin and his kidney problems and then finally when Pierce was diagnosed with autism... Did God slip a stitch or was He looking the other way when these things happened? MOST CERTAINLY NOT!
He purposed them they were part of the pattern that He had originally picked out.
If you go on in Psalm 139 vs 16 says "Your eyes saw my unformed substance (ball of wool lol) ; in your book were written, every one of them, the days that were formed for me, when as yet there was none of them."
To know that God did this all on purpose gives me great comfort... strange I know but it does because that gives me an answer and something to look forward to... I can look at my situation as can you and say ok what was I supposed to be? All along knowing this was no cosmic mistake or something we did wrong, God is not punishing us. He did it on purpose! All of the things we have gone through with our boys have grown us in ways I don't know i ever would of if they were not born like they were... I'm finding out my pattern, you should look for yours is it a cardigan, scarf, booties or whatever it is...
Find it praise God for it and live in it all along trusting in Him knowing He knows all about your days...